*author's note: i'm going to try and name the title for each entry after a cool-sounding component of a car. i guess i can include a link to the wiki entry about it as well. this blog will be educational in multiple ways!
well, this is my first official entry. let's make it a good one.
so i just found out that one of my best friends, rommel (whom i consider a brother to me), is going out with my cousin (whom i consider a sister to me). i had suspected that they had feelings for each other, but i was shocked to hear that they were dating--even moreso when i was told that basically everybody knew about it except for myself; the real knockout shot, however, was that they were going out for almost two months.
you should've seen my face when i heard the news. i imagine myself looking like cory matthews from boy meets world--eyes illustrating that the light bulb over his head had gone on, mouth gaping, and exclaiming, "that explains EVERYTHING!" kat, a mutual friend between rommel, ashley, and i, just laughed at me.
i wouldn't say that i'm mad regarding any of those things. but i would be lying if i said that i wasn't sad about it.
i'll be blunt; i miss hanging out with ashley. ever since we were growing up, we'd always be together with our other relatives. we were essentially both only children (my half-brother was going to school at ucla by the time i was born), but we were rarely alone. my freshman year of college, during my weekends at home we'd hit up downtown and go shopping, and i'd show her the wonders of loan money. i'd also stop by her house before i went back to irvine sunday evenings, just to talk and give her a hug before leaving.
i'm not quite sure what happened, though. if i had to put my finger on it, i'd say that she was just growing up. she had her own things going on, and grew closer to other people. but i, too, began to have a separate agenda, what with college and all. whatever the cause, i still miss spending time with her--you know, just the two of us.
we can make it if we try
that is, however, not to say that she didn't start to love me any less. oh, not at all. i know full well that she does.
and that's what makes me smile, despite the sadness. although i don't really think much of the times that we spend together nowadays, i think there's a part of me that truly cherishes each and every moment. also, i'm really glad that she has great and awesome people like rommel and nicole to be with her and support her in all that she does. so, i'm not sad regarding the fact that she has a boyfriend now.
after all, my little sis is growing up.
